[ She's never been a big fan of the dark, but especially so when it involves Steve's house and the woods surrounding it. As she turns the corner and sees the light turned on for her she lets out a low breath of relief. She parks beside Steve's car and quickly makes her way to the door, knocking before crossing her arms over her chest and rocking on her feet. ]
[Steve can't recall the last time Nancy had actually set foot in his house. He would like to believe they shared fond memories here but in all reality this was the very place that started Nancy's nightmares, her trauma.
Whatever she needed to talk to him about had to be pretty damn serious for Nancy to ask if she could come over and at such a late hour. The wait had Steve pacing about his living room, unable to sit still in fear something else had happened.
The sudden knock catches him off guard, startling him for a moment before he jogs over to open the door. ]
Hey. [ She gives him a small nod, hesitating a moment before gesturing inside.] Can I come in?
[ She doesn't like being out in the open. Not when her last memory of being here was when she'd seen the demogorgon with no face for the first time. She shudders at the thought, gripping her arms even tighter. She really wishes she'd brought one of her guns. ]
[He motions for her to come inside before closing the door behind her and locking up. Having spent years alone in his parent's house and having the knowledge of knowing what lurks beneath Hawkins, Steve takes his own precautions. ]
What's going on?
[Something serious, obviously. It's evident by the way Nancy is carrying herself.]
[ Nancy shakes her head, biting her lip before she takes a deep breath. ] I wanted to talk to you before Jonathan said anything. [ She swallows nervously, before speeding forward, focusing on a spot to the right of Steve's head on the wall.] I can't stop thinking about what One showed me. My mom and Holly and Mike...and how he wanted to use me to get to Eleven. What if he's still in my head? What if he's still listening? Using me?
[ She meets Steve's eyes.] If he is, he knows my secrets and he'll use them against me. [ She presses her lips together. ] So I had to tell Jonathan that... I still have feelings for you.
[Before Jonathan said anything? Steve had been making it a point to avoid Nancy and Jonathan as much as humanely possible, especially when the two were together. Steve had spoken his truth to Nancy that night in the woods, expressed that he still loved her.
He didn't expect her to suddenly confess her own undying love for him in return. That simply wasn't Nancy Wheeler and-
She never loved him.
She loved fucking Jonathan Byers.]
Nance...
[The tone in Nancy's voice is a clear indication that this fear had been weighing on her mind for a good while now and it guts Steve to the core. ]
I-I don't think he's still in your head.
[Things had been pretty silent lately, perhaps a little too much. Steve nods his head encouragingly and he's willing to offer Nancy all the support she needs. ]
I still have feelings for you.
[It feels like a gun has just went off near Steve's ear, there is this intense ringing but everything around him seems so still.
Motionless.
This doesn't seem real and it takes Steve a moment to register what Nancy is actually confessing.]
[ She can tell she's caught him off guard and part of her wants to apologize and run away, but what was the point of her telling Jonathan and blowing them up if she didn't own up to the truth that One would use against her if he had the chance.
She takes a step towards Steve, uncrossing her arms, but resisting the urge to reach out to touch him. He looks shaken. ] I don't know. This last week, spending time with you, it reminded me of all the reasons why we were together. That and you're so different now, Steve. You've grown up...
[ She takes a shaky breath.] I couldn't not tell him. [ She reaches up to rub her temples.] And then he told me he never applied to college. And we fought and I just... I didn't want you to be blindsided.
[Steve can't deny that he's waited for this very moment. That he's dreamed of Nancy's perfect relationship with Jonathan Byers to come crushing down and she finally realizes that he wasn't as great as she assumed.
Only nothing about Nancy's confession seemed right or made Steve feel excited, relieved.
She never loved him and-
Why now?
Nancy has always chosen Jonathan over him, Steve has never been her priority. Not even when they were together. What's changed her mind suddenly?
Steve's brows furrow as she mentions the fight with Jonathan, how he had lied about their future.
No? [ She's not sure. They didn't actually say they were over. She might have, if Jonathan hadn't stormed out, she was so angry with him in the moment, but she'd also felt guilty about her admission. She hadn't wanted him to be blindsided either.
Steve was supposed to be a part of her past.] No, I don't think so.
[ Was that why Steve thought she was here? To jump into his arms? Her brow furrows as she stares back at him.] I'm sorry, I just wanted to let you know what happened from me before you heard it from anyone else. I thought the least I could do was tell you the truth also.
Nancy's response hits him like a punch in the gut. It's difficult to hide the pain that flashes within his dark eyes, mixed with confusion. Nancy hadn't exactly broken up with Jonathan and yet here she was confessing that she may still have feelings for him?
Of course he doesn't expect her to fall into his arms and swoon. He's not Jonathan Byers. ]
But you're telling me that you may suddenly still have feelings for me because why?
Because I don't want One to be able to use it against us! [ She crosses her arms. ] He's going to come after any weak spots we have and if he saw inside my mind, then he saw... this too.
[ She sighs. ] I still love Jonathan, Steve. But I can't deny that over the last week there were a few times when I... I felt something for you too.
I didn't come here just to hurt you. I just needed to be honest with both of you.
[Everything that Nancy is saying makes complete since. Of course Vecna would use any weaknesses possible in order to take them down, use that against them. He can't be upset or angry with Nancy for taking those precautions.
Vecna has already invaded her mind once.
And yet, this conversation is twisting a knife in his heart. He doesn't want to hear how Nancy still loves Jonathan, he doesn't want to hear how she's had moments where she might still care for him too. ]
[ Nancy sighs in frustration and shakes her head. She doesn't know how she expected Steve to react, but this wasn't it. She presses her lips together. ] Okay. Now you know.
[ She swallows and moves back towards the door, pausing.] I'm really sorry, Steve. I wasn't... this wasn't what I wanted.
[How was Nancy wanting Steve to act exactly? Did she expect him to be excited about the news? Brush it off his shoulder like no big deal? Unfortunately, Steve does neither. This conversation feels like a slap in the face.
Especially since Nancy is well aware of Steve's own feelings. ]
And you thought telling me this would make everything better?
[ She looks at the floor, at the space between them, and shakes her head. ] No. I thought it was honest. I knew it wouldn't make anything better or easier for anyone.
I just... [ She looks up and searches his eyes. ] I wish my feelings were simpler, but they aren't. They're just this big complicated mess and I don't know what to do about them without hurting someone and I hate it.
[Steve can feel his jaw tighten. Nancy isn't trying to start an argument, he understands that fully but her confessing is just twisting the knife into his ribcage.
This feels like yet another barrier being built between them. Steve was an idiot to believe that maybe they could actually be friends or-]
Fair? [ She doesn't mean to get defensive, it's just easier than letting herself consider how right he is. She had thought she had let him go, but then they'd gone through Spring Break and everything had come flooding back. She was so proud of who he'd become and she couldn't deny that there wasn't a part of her that couldn't help but think about how things might be different now. ] Was it fair of you to tell me that I was the one in your dream? [ She shifts on her feet, meeting his gaze head on.] Why did you tell me that if you didn't want... something from me?
[Steve turns his head away, arms folding over his own chest. Nancy has a fair point, she typically does. Why did he confess his feelings when he knows damn well she still loves Jonathan.
She's always going to choose him. She's made that pretty clear. ]
And that was the only reason? [ She shakes her head. ] Did you ever think about what it would do to me if something had happened? If I had to live knowing that you still... [ She sucks in a breath, remembering the feel of vines twisting around her arms and neck, watching them squeeze the life out of Steve and Robin on the opposite wall.
She stiffens up. ] Forget it. You're right. We don't have to do this. I'm sorry I bothered you.
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I mean, it is, in a way, but I'd rather tell you face to face than over a text.
Are you not home?
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Face to face, got it.
Yeah, I'm home. I just got in actually.
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Just give a knock.
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Whatever she needed to talk to him about had to be pretty damn serious for Nancy to ask if she could come over and at such a late hour. The wait had Steve pacing about his living room, unable to sit still in fear something else had happened.
The sudden knock catches him off guard, startling him for a moment before he jogs over to open the door. ]
Hey?
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[ She doesn't like being out in the open. Not when her last memory of being here was when she'd seen the demogorgon with no face for the first time. She shudders at the thought, gripping her arms even tighter. She really wishes she'd brought one of her guns. ]
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[He motions for her to come inside before closing the door behind her and locking up. Having spent years alone in his parent's house and having the knowledge of knowing what lurks beneath Hawkins, Steve takes his own precautions. ]
What's going on?
[Something serious, obviously. It's evident by the way Nancy is carrying herself.]
Did something happen?
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[ She meets Steve's eyes.] If he is, he knows my secrets and he'll use them against me. [ She presses her lips together. ] So I had to tell Jonathan that... I still have feelings for you.
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He didn't expect her to suddenly confess her own undying love for him in return. That simply wasn't Nancy Wheeler and-
She never loved him.
She loved fucking Jonathan Byers.]
Nance...
[The tone in Nancy's voice is a clear indication that this fear had been weighing on her mind for a good while now and it guts Steve to the core. ]
I-I don't think he's still in your head.
[Things had been pretty silent lately, perhaps a little too much. Steve nods his head encouragingly and he's willing to offer Nancy all the support she needs. ]
I still have feelings for you.
[It feels like a gun has just went off near Steve's ear, there is this intense ringing but everything around him seems so still.
Motionless.
This doesn't seem real and it takes Steve a moment to register what Nancy is actually confessing.]
W-what?
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She takes a step towards Steve, uncrossing her arms, but resisting the urge to reach out to touch him. He looks shaken. ] I don't know. This last week, spending time with you, it reminded me of all the reasons why we were together. That and you're so different now, Steve. You've grown up...
[ She takes a shaky breath.] I couldn't not tell him. [ She reaches up to rub her temples.] And then he told me he never applied to college. And we fought and I just... I didn't want you to be blindsided.
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Only nothing about Nancy's confession seemed right or made Steve feel excited, relieved.
She never loved him and-
Why now?
Nancy has always chosen Jonathan over him, Steve has never been her priority. Not even when they were together. What's changed her mind suddenly?
Steve's brows furrow as she mentions the fight with Jonathan, how he had lied about their future.
Shit.]
Wait. You two broke up?
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Steve was supposed to be a part of her past.] No, I don't think so.
[ Was that why Steve thought she was here? To jump into his arms? Her brow furrows as she stares back at him.] I'm sorry, I just wanted to let you know what happened from me before you heard it from anyone else. I thought the least I could do was tell you the truth also.
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Nancy's response hits him like a punch in the gut. It's difficult to hide the pain that flashes within his dark eyes, mixed with confusion. Nancy hadn't exactly broken up with Jonathan and yet here she was confessing that she may still have feelings for him?
Of course he doesn't expect her to fall into his arms and swoon. He's not Jonathan Byers. ]
But you're telling me that you may suddenly still have feelings for me because why?
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[ She sighs. ] I still love Jonathan, Steve. But I can't deny that over the last week there were a few times when I... I felt something for you too.
I didn't come here just to hurt you. I just needed to be honest with both of you.
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Vecna has already invaded her mind once.
And yet, this conversation is twisting a knife in his heart. He doesn't want to hear how Nancy still loves Jonathan, he doesn't want to hear how she's had moments where she might still care for him too. ]
Right.
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[ She swallows and moves back towards the door, pausing.] I'm really sorry, Steve. I wasn't... this wasn't what I wanted.
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Especially since Nancy is well aware of Steve's own feelings. ]
And you thought telling me this would make everything better?
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I just... [ She looks up and searches his eyes. ] I wish my feelings were simpler, but they aren't. They're just this big complicated mess and I don't know what to do about them without hurting someone and I hate it.
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This feels like yet another barrier being built between them. Steve was an idiot to believe that maybe they could actually be friends or-]
I'm not doing this.....
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[ She sighs, shaking her head.] Steve, I'm not... I'm not asking anything from you. I'm just telling you. You don't have to do anything.
Just, be careful. That's all I'm asking.
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[Steve points between them as he speaks. He takes notice in her defensive stance, her tone. He really doesn't want an argument here but-]
It's not fair.
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She's always going to choose him. She's made that pretty clear. ]
Because I never got the chance to tell you.
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She stiffens up. ] Forget it. You're right. We don't have to do this. I'm sorry I bothered you.
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