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[bigboyvibes]

I was your boyfriend....

[And maybe his head hadn't been in the right place but he wanted her to move on too. He realizes now that was asking far too much of her. ]

And I would have.

[whatwestarted]

I know you would have. It just - it wasn't the right time for us. [she's visibly flustered.]

[bigboyvibes]

You made that clear....

[in more ways than one]

[whatwestarted]

But you're still mad at me for dating Jonathan.

[bigboyvibes]

Nancy...

[He runs his hands down his face in frustration.]

[whatwestarted]

Aren't you? You're angry. Admit it.

[bigboyvibes]

I was hurt!

[But he's tried his best not to hold it against her. He pushed her away with his selfishness and Jonathan had been by her side like a little lost puppy from the get go.]

[whatwestarted]

And I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. But I thought you'd forgiven me.

[her eyes are hot, her shoulders pulled sharp.]

[bigboyvibes]

I never said I didn't.

[It would be wrong to hold that against her despite how much it had hurt him.]

[whatwestarted]

Well, you talk like you're still mad at me.

[and she doesn't know how to fix it.]

[bigboyvibes]

I'm sorry....

[He doesn't exactly know how to fix it either or how they can get past this hurdle.]

I've learned to move past it.

[whatwestarted]

I'm not ready for another relationship, Steve. I dated you, and then Jonathan, and - I just need a little time to figure out who I am.

[she takes a breath.]

[bigboyvibes]

So do it.

[He's not going to stop her.]

[whatwestarted]

But if you want to try again, when I do.

[bigboyvibes]

Let's not worry about that right now.

[She needs to do some healing on her own first.]

[whatwestarted]

I mean it.

[but she finally deflates slightly, pulling open the door and dropping into the passenger's seat.]

[bigboyvibes]

Let's get you home.

[He mutters lowly as he moves to get in himself.]

Don't want your mother sending all of fucking Hawkins to track me down.

[whatwestarted]

She won't.

[muttered as she buckles herself in.]

[bigboyvibes]

That will be a first.

[He mutters back lowly.]

[whatwestarted]

[she sinks a little in her seat, frustrated.]

How do I make you believe how I felt about you?

[bigboyvibes]

You don't have too.

[He's accepted the fact that he just wasn't enough for her. That weren't as perfect as he thought and thats fine.]

[whatwestarted]

I want to.

[she grips her hands into uncomfortable fists in her lap.]

It's important to me.

[bigboyvibes]

Nancy, I swear it's fine. Alright? It is.

[And he wants her to believe him when he says it.]

[whatwestarted]

I loved you, Steve. You were the first guy I ever loved.

[bigboyvibes]

[He doesn't want to get into another argument about their failed relationship because he knows it's just going to upset her. That's the last thing he wants.

So he remains silent.]