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[bigboyvibes]

Sex is off the table, yeah?

[Steve doesn't want her to feel obligated to have sex or that's something he's expecting out of all of this because it isn't.]

Think I should be asking you that question.

[whatwestarted]

No, it's not. I told you, I don't regret before.

[it's a little huff, and she reaches up to touch his collar briefly.]

But it's up to you.

[bigboyvibes]

I don't regret it either, Nance.

[And as he mentioned before he doesn't want things to go south because they're just being stupid teenagers.]

Do you still have feelings for me?

[whatwestarted]

[she hesitates, then looks up, staring skyward. away from him, just for a moment.]

I don't know. Yes. I think so? Unless that's a problem for you.

[bigboyvibes]

You either do or you don't, Nance.

[It's a simple question and one he feels might need a possible answer so that they both could begin to figure out things between them.]

[whatwestarted]

[she sighs, pressing her hands against her face.]

I do. Sorry.

[bigboyvibes]

You don't have to be sorry, Nancy.

[More progress was being made and that was a good sign. He doesn't know if it's wise they try to start over or if her heart is even ready for another relationship but-]

And you're fine with us casually having sex when we hangout? No getting upset or worried about us after?

[whatwestarted]

I am. I mean - I think we can get past that. I'm being selfish.

[she pats steve's chest, then paces a few steps back.]

Maybe I'm being optimistic.

[bigboyvibes]

You are not being selfish, Nance. I just want to make sure we're both alright with the choices we make when it comes to each other. I don't want you thinking all I want is sex or something worse.

[Because again that isn't the case here]

[whatwestarted]

[it would be easier for both of them, she thinks, if he really were only after sex, but she's glad he's not. it's also unfair how attractive this display of emotional intelligence from him is.]

I know that's not you. And the last thing I want is for us to hurt each other. You know that, right?

[bigboyvibes]

[It would be easier for them both if they just cut ties completely but that's proven to be rather difficult despite the history between them.]

I would rather we not hurt each other again if possible.

[whatwestarted]

[she knows that's the best option, but she refuses to acknowledge it. not yet, at least.]

Yeah. Me, too. So what do we do?

[bigboyvibes]

Thats a damn good question.

[And the answers aren't exactly pleasing]

[whatwestarted]

This feels - bad.

[she's come to the same conclusion.]

[bigboyvibes]

Us?

[He's preparing himself for her answer.]

[whatwestarted]

No. Just... all the circumstances.

[she's going to blow into her hands, just because it's getting cold there.]

[bigboyvibes]

I can still just take you home if that's the safer option?

[He nods for them to walk towards his car so that he can unlock the passenger's door and let Nancy in.]

[whatwestarted]

I don't want to go home. I'm just worried it's the wrong choice.

[she doesn't get back into the car, not just yet. stubborn.]

[bigboyvibes]

It doesn't have to be right?

[Must she always be this stubborn and difficult?]

[whatwestarted]

Unless we hurt each other by picking the wrong choice.

[yes.]

[bigboyvibes]

What are you wanting to do?

[It's better to an idea of what she wants and what could be considered going too far.]

[whatwestarted]

I want to hook up with you.

[her shoulders are pinched uncomfortably.]

But I'm worried about after.

[bigboyvibes]

We trust each other right?

[They both know it's just another random hookup with no strings attached. Surely they both could be mature about it.]

[whatwestarted]

Obviously.

[it's clear she means it, too, by the stubborn furrow of her brow.]

Without question.

[bigboyvibes]

So thats a start, right?

[And another step forward to whatever this is between them.]