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[bigboyvibes]

[He realizes now that he had been selfish when it came to Nancy's grief and he didn't grasp the fact that she truly missed Barb. That she constantly struggled with this inner guilt, even now.

That had not been fair but she didn't have to turn to Jonathan in the end.]

You know I uhhh, really like to think that maybe we would have worked you know? Even though I know we wouldn't have.

[whatwestarted]

Your friends thought I was a priss.

[nancy's voice is fond for the nostalgia of memory.]

But why are you so sure we wouldn't have?

[bigboyvibes]

They thought you were a lot of things.

[Even Robin had called Nancy a priss but when it came to both Tommy and Carol they adored slandering Nancy's name as much as possible. ]

I've realized we're two very different people and who's to say you wouldn't have chosen Jonathan despite everything?

[whatwestarted]

That's not fair to say. I don't think I would've even been friends with Jonathan if everything that happened didn't.

[which is a little sad to think about, but still.]

Maybe you would've just gotten tired of me. I could be pretty boring back then.

[bigboyvibes]

You honestly believe that?

[Because Steve sure as hell didn't. He figured the two would have gotten close regardless the circumstances.]

You honestly think that too?

[whatwestarted]

Steve and Will were best friends for how long, and I said like - five words to Jonathan before Will went missing.

[the next question gives her pause, though.]

And I don't know, maybe? I heard you broke a lot of hearts.

[bigboyvibes]

Doesn't mean you wouldn't have talked to him any more.

[And Jonathan had seemed pretty set on Nancy from the get go.]

I did, actually but you? You were different.

[whatwestarted]

Was it the flash cards? I always knew the flash cards were sexy.

[she's watching him again, expression quietly fond.]

[bigboyvibes]

Totally the flash cards. Was there ever any doubt in that?

[Steve realizes that he fell a little too fast and he should have kept himself guarded but he truly had believed that he had a future with Nancy.]

[whatwestarted]

You were a good study partner.

[she's both disappointed and a little relieved when they arrive at the theater, but she's making no rush to get out of the car.]

We had a good run, Steve Harrington.

[bigboyvibes]

You think so?

[Her words sting ever so slightly but he likes to believe that some parts of their relationship had been good, that she didn't hate or despise him the whole time

But-]

We did.

[whatwestarted]

Of course I think so.

[her tone is dismissive, like this is all just completely obvious.]

You were a great boyfriend. All those dinners with Barb's parents - you barely even knew her.

[bigboyvibes]

Stop...

[He lowers his head slightly in shame. They both know damn well that he wasn't a good boyfriend. He never had been.]

I wasn't a good boyfriend.

[whatwestarted]

[nancy gives him a firm look, sits up a little straighter.]

I loved you, Steve. I just - needed more than that. It wasn't your fault.

[bigboyvibes]

[Ouch.

Ouuuuuch.

Steve can feel old wounds begin to rip open and pieces of his heart will start leaking out. ]

I'm sorry my love wasn't enough.

[whatwestarted]

Yeah. I'm sorry, too.

[she means it.]

I didn't want love. I wanted... vengeance, I guess.

[bigboyvibes]

I should have been more understanding of what you were going through.

[And he was stupid to believe that love could fix their problems, heal her heart.

It was a hard lesson learned but he's grown from the pain.]

[whatwestarted]

It's not like either of us had a guidebook to follow, Steve.

[she hesitates, then leans forward, touching his wrist.]

The only way we can go is forward.

[bigboyvibes]

I know....

[That still didn't ease the blow of her choices and the fact that their relationship crumbled in the process.]

Crawling forwards.

[whatwestarted]

[she squeezes his wrist and then hesitates before letting him go.]

Do you still want to do this? The movie.

[bigboyvibes]

[Shit!

He had forgotten all about the movie. The conversation had drifted a little too personal and deep.]

Shit! Right the movie. Guess we better be heading inside, yeah?

[whatwestarted]

Only if you want.

[she's trying to give him a gentle escape, if he wants it.]

[bigboyvibes]

Is that a hint you would rather not?

He understood if a movie really isn't her vibe right now.]

[whatwestarted]

No. But I'm the one who keeps...

[she trails off.]

I'm making life harder for you.

[bigboyvibes]

[His brow knits in confusion as he processes her words for a second or two.]

Harder for me?